Dear World, 
         If anyone is listening. Perhaps I'm just blogging to an empty space, which in this case wouldn't be half so bad because I would just be blogging to an empty space of White sheet paper in the virtual would. I suppose that's not half as bad either to share your life story with a world that isn't necessarily tangible as it is just visually there to see it's real to some degree. So I suppose I'm just tossing this thought out to the large sea of nothingness world. 

Life is beautiful ❤️ no matter how challenging things may get. Things are definitely not easy right now. On some levels it feels like God is off on some distance shore somewhere, very, very far away. 

We were not prepared for the job loss by a long shot. It's not been easy to jump back to business. So what do you do when you've had a friend, or a so called friend terminate you from a job wrongfully and unjustly? 

At first we were feeling a sense of calm that it happened and then deep grief and then sudden inspiration and encouragement. We watched God help provide for me to have a Crown put in my mouth after all that Dental work. Thank God! Because I didn't think I could live with unfinished work in my mouth and not be able to eat. 

We didn't know where a job was coming from, BUT! on the 1st of September my Husband ended up as a very part time security guard. It's been a rollercoaster ride. We are able to pay rent this month and I think that in the end this whole challenge will roll over. I'm not sure what all God is doing, but I'm sure it's gotta be good in the end. 

So now I wait. We are waiting. We have bills to pay. I'm sure they will get paid. In the meantime while we wait on provision. I think about Christmas. Wait?!? What?! Did I just say that while I wait, I think about Christmas?!?!? Hahahaha yes! I do! I actually do! I think about Christmas. Christmas comes to mind! How on Earth!?!? Can you think about Christmas in a time like this!?! You say. 

Well, I'll explain. When I first moved to this little country like home near my ocean, it was sort of my dream home. I loved the green trees all about the place and the old doll house type Shutters. It was cute to me. 

Before my Husband, became my Husband, I was here by myself cleaning up the place. I cleaned everything I could think of. I cleaned all the dishes by hand because there were no dish washer to use and the one that was here was not in working order. I did not use the A.C at the time because I didn't want to pay the bill for which I could not afford to do yet. 

I prayed over my Husband and this house. I could have only dreamed it would be mine at the time. I remember how hot it was in this house but I knew it was mine and I knew God would give it to me. 

During that season I would be listening to the song, "A Christmas to remember." By Amy Grant. I didn't know what would happen next or when something wonderful would happen. But I felt that song lay a message on my heart that I could have great expectations that something would happen, that something could come my way and in time a season would pass and a new season would arrive bringing with it new open doors of opportunity. Maybe I would have a Husband and maybe that Husband would live with me in this house and eventually all would be well, I could count on that. It was a dream and it was a vision of Faith for something at Sometime it would be a Christmas to be remembered, eventually it was, eventually we were married my Husband had come from Rio Vista to So.Cal, we were married and shortly after we were celebrating with the first pregnancy of our first son. It had become a Christmas to remember after all. 

Now here we are a few years later and 3 small children of our own to love. It's hot once again. We are conserving everything we have and rationing our A C to only one hour a night. We haven't enjoyed a date night in a long time and we are totally exhausted from the long summer days and no job hardly to get us food on the table. I'm working with what we have, such as flour, eggs and butter and a little milk with what little we have left. Beans are plentiful and rice so we won't go hungry. Meanwhile that song returns to me once again, "A Christmas to remember," by Amy Grant. 

I'm dreaming once again as the heat makes us feel tired and unmotivated to do much of anything around the house but I must keep going. I can't see how this season is good or how what we are going through is anything in sight of something in the distance that we can get our standing on. But the season of Christmas has me hopeful that this summer season won't be long lasting and perhaps, just maybe there is a Christmas we can look forward to and maybe, just maybe, it will be a Christmas to remember after all. 

My Hopes are grounded in the Almighty. 

The Restaurantless Chef


I am married to a Restaurantless Chef. My name is Raquel Vida Roberts. My Husband was fired after helping a restaurant open it's doors. Life up until now was a bit of scrambled egg. Nothing was exactly as it should be. 

My long time friend from High School came over to visit the family yesterday and I have to say, it was a pleasant visit amoung all the plans to create and operate a new Business my Husband has created called, "R&R Operations." 

Today we made our first batch of cookie dough and baked a few cookies to inspire our moving forward toward success in our building of our business. It was quite the inspiration needed to get our wheels turning in the right direction. 

We spent the majority of the day gathering together our recipes and my Husband began the number side of pricing everything out whole we listened to worship music. We are a pretty good team my Husband and I. 

I couldn't have thought that all this happened in order to push us straight into where it was that we were supposed to be. It was like we were pushed right into the deep end just so we could swim, go after our dreams. Life is funny that way, sometimes you just need a shove in the right direction, or push. 

 Our Restaurantless Chef life today

It has been hard. Very, very, hard. It has been a long month and a hard place to be in when you can't eat for lack of money to help pay for Dental work to be completed. I'm fairly familiar with this road of having the inability to eat until there is money to afford the cost of Dental care, the story of my Life. 

My Husband just got fired. And that was fun. In many ways we were both ready for a change. We were planning ahead for the future in the meantime. It was never the dream job but it was a something that helped us pay the bill's in the meantime until we could make our next life change. 

It all happened so fast. First we were enjoying a meal where he was working and it was beautiful. The next we were in a Hospital room waiting for our 3rd son to be born all while having my husband's boss call to discuss business, completely not asked for but I figured, it was to help a friend out with his business. 

The Restaurant world is an amazing world to be apart of. It also has it's unknown and unseen troubles. Before we knew it my Husband was fired after having given so much of his time to help the Restaurant open, even working from home to create new recipes without pay to start. 

So now here we are. Me unable to eat a good meal, my husband out of a job and living off what we have left and my Husband's last pay check. 

The Chef world can be magical and romantic from the person looking from the outside in. But from where I stand, it is work and not everyone you work with is an honest person. But work is good. Work is a good gift to have in life, it means you know what it means to earn the stuff on your back, called clothes. 

I've always wanted to be a blogger and I've always wanted to do a lot with my life. I always thought I would begin my life's journey while my Husband's dream job was taking off. Or whenever things were happening. 

I'm not sure I'm doing this blog or starting a YouTube Channel when things are truly amazing. But I am taking a step of faith in the right direction. I'm working it all out. 

I love to sing and to share God's love and inspire and encourage you to live life to the fullest and so, I'm going to do that. I also love to bake. Right now we don't have much but in all we are also blessed and watching God's hand move in our life as we take steps of Faith towards our dream. 

While we are in this season of totally relying on God in the deep end of this big ocean that we are in no matter how frustrating it may be, in the end we will have been glad that we learned what it was to give God the position in our home as the provider and not our friends and family or our wallets, just God. 

There is always something positive to learn about what God is doing in the Desert. Join us on our journey as we take this walk of Faith towards buying our first food truck from having nothing that we should be so successful with it to watching what God does. I think it will be a beautiful story. And guess what? If your story is like ours God can bring you to a new place in your story as well. Please send me your stories. We are here to pray with you and for you. 

We want to watch your story unfold too. We believe God can provide where there doesn't seem to be away. But there is.